I'm a broken clock, right twice a day, at sunrise and sunset. This has been a hard season. But twice a day, at the water's edge, I'm exactly where I'm meant to be.
Loss & Grief
The Wildfire Sun: Beauty from Ashes
The sun went red because something far away was burning. The glory I was chasing was refracted grief. And I finally understood why I feel so right beneath it.
What the Fire Couldn’t Touch
Mama Marci mailed me a letter last week. It was in Joshua's fireproof lockbox—one of the things he chose to protect from everything that could destroy it. I didn't know it existed. He never told me he kept it.
How Thin the Line Is
Tomorrow, Joshua would have turned 47. He died on St. Patrick's Day, 2023 — suddenly, unexpectedly, the way death sometimes comes. I'm catching up with him now, and I've been thinking about how thin the line is. How suddenly a photo becomes a memorial. How the living keep aging while the dead stay still.
Finding Peace in Uncertain Times: When Home Feels Far Away
Homelessness taught me that peace isn't about where you sleep—it's about what you carry inside. Here's how I learned to find rest even when everything felt unstable.
When Your Body Forces You to Slow Down: Lessons from Hand Surgery
Four hand surgeries in fifteen months taught me that sometimes our bodies know what our minds refuse to accept. Here's what I learned about rest, limits, and listening to what hurts.
What Matters Most: Lessons in Pursuits, People, and Poetry
Loss has a way of clarifying what actually matters. Here's what Joshua's death taught me about chasing the right things, investing in people, and finding beauty in unexpected places.
Finding Words After Tragedy: Why We Write Through Grief
When Joshua died, I thought words were useless against such pain. But I discovered that writing through tragedy isn't wasted—it's how we make meaning from what feels meaningless.
When Death Comes on St. Patrick’s Day: Stories Interrupted
St. Patrick's Day will never be the same. This is the story of the day my world changed forever (twice!) and how love persists even when the person is gone.
The Last Spring: A Story of Love and Loss
Some seasons carry extra weight because you don't know they're the last. This is the story of Joshua's final spring and how it changed everything about how I see life and love.
Writer's Growth 