Tomorrow, Joshua would have turned 47. He died on St. Patrick's Day, 2023 — suddenly, unexpectedly, the way death sometimes comes. I'm catching up with him now, and I've been thinking about how thin the line is. How suddenly a photo becomes a memorial. How the living keep aging while the dead stay still.
Loss & Grief
Finding Peace in Uncertain Times: When Home Feels Far Away
Homelessness taught me that peace isn't about where you sleep—it's about what you carry inside. Here's how I learned to find rest even when everything felt unstable.
When Your Body Forces You to Slow Down: Lessons from Hand Surgery
Four hand surgeries in fifteen months taught me that sometimes our bodies know what our minds refuse to accept. Here's what I learned about rest, limits, and listening to what hurts.
What Matters Most: Lessons in Pursuits, People, and Poetry
Loss has a way of clarifying what actually matters. Here's what Joshua's death taught me about chasing the right things, investing in people, and finding beauty in unexpected places.
Finding Words After Tragedy: Why We Write Through Grief
When Joshua died, I thought words were useless against such pain. But I discovered that writing through tragedy isn't wasted—it's how we make meaning from what feels meaningless.
When Death Comes on St. Patrick’s Day: Stories Interrupted
St. Patrick's Day will never be the same. This is the story of the day my world changed forever (twice!) and how love persists even when the person is gone.
The Last Spring: A Story of Love and Loss
Some seasons carry extra weight because you don't know they're the last. This is the story of Joshua's final spring and how it changed everything about how I see life and love.
Four Days After My Cancelled Wedding: Learning to Live Fully Anyway
Four days ago, I didn't get married or start my honeymoon in Europe. Instead, I hosted a Harry Potter photo booth, made curry chicken, and celebrated my nieces' birthday. Here's how I chose to live intentionally after heartbreak.
After Ending My Engagement: When Truth Isn’t Black and White
After calling off my wedding, I'm learning that truth and trust aren't as simple as they seem. Sometimes being human means living in the gray areas where colors bleed together until you can't see the lines.
After the Fairy Tale Ends: Finding Truth When the Fog Clears
When I broke my engagement and called off my move to Germany, I had to face who I was without the fairy tale. Here's what I discovered when the fog cleared and I was finally standing alone—but standing.
Writer's Growth 